"I have a question, how don't i attract souls who do not responsible for their wounds?, Is it only to reflect and understand the dynamics ? Or is it also a matter of energetic vibration ?"
If you mean how you stop attracting Soul's who are not responsible for their wounds it does start with the understanding of your own inner dynamics that are responsible for doing so, dynamics that are more involved that the simply fact of you being a natural giver. Then, in that understanding of yourself, to not allow yourself to be sucked into such a relationship ever again, affirming to yourself what you really want from a partner which then alters your own existing vibrational nature that in turn attracts that very kind of partner. When the Soul is in an evolutionary transition like yours is it is typically the case where the Soul will attract those that are symbolic of the past, and those that reflect the future: the type of partner that reflects your own inner changes reflecting what you really need/ want in a relationship.
Thus, because of this transition, in any future attraction you feel inclined to check out make sure you are just friends first: not instant intimacy. In the context of friendship you can then put all your cards on the table, so to speak, cards that reflect where you have been and why, and cards that reflect where you are going and why. Within those cards stating what you want and need from a future partner. Have the new attraction do exactly the same thing. In the context of this friendship you will be able to sort out who is who is you sustain the friendship long enough.
Then, after you are sure about the person, allow the intimacy to occur while maintaining separate residences. This then allows for time alone in order to integrate what has been happening, and to make sure that this is what you really want. This will then lead to a permanent relationship if that is what you desire.
Another question about my natural guilty, do i used the force for others received what i thought they needed?, when you say force do you mean violence?.
If you mean physical violence, no. Psychological violence, yes.
On a trip with mushrooms, i saw a life where i guided people spiritually or religiously, pointing the way to go, believing i possessed the truth about them, it's that what do you mean? could it be?, cause in this trip i felt very guity, as if I had committed unforgivable mistake that I needed to atone.
Yes, this is the perfect example.
About the fear of abandonment, my Father left me, i have been many times in psychotherapy for this, getting better with this, but certainly it's not entirely healthy, how i can heal this?, i don't want to feel this fear in relationships.
This is an example of such abandonment, yes. But in the last several lifetimes you have also attracted emotionally/ psychologically dishonest souls who desired to use you for their own purposes, souls that you trusted because of how they would initially appear to you: how they presented themselves initially. These types of souls would always have all the right words in the beginning, words that served as 'hooks' to your soul. Then believing and trusting in them in this way such types of souls would progressively reveal who they actually were: their actual emotional/ psychological reality. These types of souls would always be narcissistic types that, because of this core narcissism, would end up violating your trust in various ways including leaving the relationship altogether. At that point you would already have invested your total being into them and, thus, were left holding the famous empty bag.
Because this has preceded the current life one of your souls way for compensating for this fear of abandonment would / is to attract those that seem to be more 'needy' than yourself in which you end up playing the role of nurse/psychological therapist in the context of the relationship. Unconsciously, your soul would/ does reason that if someone seems to need you more than you need them, you being the total giver, then that would somehow guarantee your sense and need for security in the relationship in order to counteract, compensate, for your fear of abandonment.
But, as you keep learning and relearning, there is no such security in these kinds of relationships anyway. So it's now time to acknowledge this within yourself so that you can change yourself and, thus, attract differently.
When you say betrayal you mean infidelity , dishonesty? or other kind of betrayal?. Sometimes I've felt that my partners are not honest , in fact I had a cheating boyfriend, but feel, sometimes, that people are not honest is just a reflection of my fear of being betrayed?
Betrayal has many forms that include infidelity and dishonesty. It is because of the recent lifetimes leading into this one in which the dynamic of betrayal has occurred in different ways that you would naturally project this, i.e people not being honest, onto most other people.
God Bless, Rad