I've been thinking about this aspect quite a bit today. Although it is a natal aspect in my chart I am also trying to understand this generally or actually specifically! (moon square nodes)
I suppose I'm trying to understand the nature of having the present ego-consciousness in a skipped-step relative to the past & future development. I admit I feel I have zero grasp of this. For instance, if one has the current ego consciousness that is applying to the south node - you'd have the conscious aspect of this personality needing to 'revisit' or incorporate/use past modes of being in order to fulfill current life purposes which also include moving toward the future ego personality. Now, if it is applying to the north node - well, then - ?? One needs to embrace that NNode - however, most people aren't even conscious of their current ego-hood - their desires, etc. are simply there 'like magic' they usually have no conception of what drives them - so, it's confusing to me to wonder how people, or certainly anyone not in the spiritual state (I think?) would go about integrating/becoming conscious of this aspect. But, I have a feeling I'm not understanding whatsoever!
Which is why I'm posting here!
I understand this aspect could correlate with gender issues/switching and family issues, perhaps ongoing life to life issues with the mother. I was wondering if this could also correlate with a split personality or at the least dissociative behaviors - ?
In general, though, I suppose I'm trying to understand what one could say that would be general & specific about the nature of this - why there would be conflict & need of resolution between the ephemeral states of ego-hood. I understand that evolutionary states would be key in understanding which dynamic is being activated - and perhaps Uranus would be key in understanding these issues.
Hope I'm being clear in what I don't understand! I appreciate any insight - thanks!
(I'd think the phase of the moon would be very important, too. In fact, aside from the general ideas of phasal aspects, what is the perspective of EA on the 'gates' of the Moon?)