Hi Rad and community
I want to post another chart that I have a question about, this too is concerning a 6th house dynamic.
Along this I have a general question regarding denial.
To provide basic bio - she lived in an ashram for a good number of years before she received instruction to "be in the world". She studied a lot of paths and began doing her own form of soul retreaval work. She is very well known in her community.
She has kept busy, being involved in many many projects that support various groups. She has had a pattern of taking on responsibilities and obligations and also not being able to follow through with them. As long as I've known her she has always been trying too hard and always "rushed" and disorganized. My general understanding of this chart is she has wanted to be known for her service and the role she is able to pay on behalf of others - based on that she has actualized a role of giving too much, taking on too much and then getting sick, stressed out, needing to go into retreat.
The basic advice I gave her half a year ago when I read her chart, especially given the chart dynamics at that time of Saturn entering her 6th at that time, approaching her skipped step and her Sun was to simply stop and to focus on the details in her life and not get ahead of herself in that regard. For example eating a diet that SHE KNOWS will help her health, and not taking on too many tasks that will stress her out.
And I emphasized that the value is in the effort, she doesn't have to have it all together right away. A part of this is calming the nervous system and to stop exposing herself to so much information (shelf full of books on spirituality and various spiritual practices- mercury in libra in 6th squaring nodes). That Mercury is semi sextile Venus retro in 7th which is ruled by Pluto in Virgo in the 5th. Giving to people via the unconscious desire to be useful and have a purpose relative to giving. She has the natural ability to tune into ppl's core needs, but has lacked appropriate discrimination about when to and when not to meet those needs. Leading to self sacrifice and then this current period in her life where she is completely dependent on other people because of what has happened with her health.
I received an email today basically outlining that her health has been in rapid decline. Which is what I expected via the immense denial that I perceived within this soul not too long ago.
Here's a snipped from that email:
Many of you are aware that ___ has long been compensating for a very longstanding illness that she has been living with for the greater part of her life. For those of you who don't know, ___ has SLE, ME, and a chronic, systemic viral infection. Systemic Lupus Erythematosus (SLE, or Lupus) is an auto-immune disease of connective tissue (collagen) in which numerous body systems are affected, often including the joints and skin, the kidneys, heart, lungs and central nervous system. Lupus can affect any organ system, and recent research is beginning to indicate that SLE may, at least in some cases, be viral in origin. The disease is characterized by remissions and relapses and is currently considered incurable. The prognosis is variable, depending on the organs involved and the extent of the inflammation. In ____'s case the lupus is accompanied by myalgic encephalomyelitis (ME), a chronic, ferociously debilitating neuro-endocrine disease, which also may be viral in etiology. ___ is dealing with a chronic viral infection which has entered her entire system... Most recently an acute pancreatitis attack has left her unable to keep down food or fluids for over a month, and because her damaged pancreas is presently unable to produce digestive enzymes, she has needed to resort to IV fluids.
The email goes on in a Virgo list making kind of way.
This very past January I saw her eating food that I know was not appropriate for her condition. I knew she was not integrating the steps that were necessary for her - that she was still in denial. At this point one of the requests in this email is to receive donations so that they can buy a juicer and things like that. I'm happy to see that she is now desiring to do that work - and I am also wondering if she actually will since she has intellectually known that juicing would be a good idea for a long time already. So my sense of it is, at this point all she can do to improve her condition is to RADICALLY alter her lifestyle where she becomes completely fixated on only living in a way that will improve her health - no matter what that takes - and included in that is working through core inner beliefs (masochistic thinking). And it seems that this soul needed to create a crisis to set her in motion in this way.
Note my question is purely theoretical as I have not received from her yet any desire for perspective. Would the best advice to give to this a soul be to truly just focus on self improvement, even if perfect health never happens in this life, just to make the effort - and to help her understand why she created this crisis in the first place?
I think what leads me to ask this is I have the intuition that this soul has given up - that she doesn't actually want to do the necessary work. I am skeptical of her actual desire to do this since her request for support in this email feels like a "desperate plea" and no where in her letter does she seem to be taking any personal responsibility for what she has brought into her life but rather just the emphasis is on all the 6th house list of things that are wrong with her. I am reflecting on this and wondering how I, if called to do so, can best serve her at this time.
Also, in general, how can any soul who is in denial take the necessary steps in their life b4 a crisis hits? Crisis, by its very nature brings to the surface the issues that the soul was not willing to address which is why the denial existed in the first place. In other words, persisting with anything seems quite difficult when there is a psychology of denial.
Is the key to engage various practices that by their very nature will bring to the surface the issues that give rise to the denial BEFORE the necessity to create a crisis? And in doing that, to at least recognize that there is denial and that there is a reason for the denial - even if it isn't understood - and to stay very close to the desire to know God by sticking with the practices so that the issues can be resolved?