Meanwhile here are the 3 charts all together..While I also previously made a reference to Ceres(Demeta) being teh Earth Mother.. the mother of Peresphone of course.. who was kidnapped & raped by Pluto.. & forced to marry him!!! So in this case maybe symbolised in her natal chart by teh square by *Uranus(r) in Scorpio!! & square *Mars in Leo?While here are some quotes from Steve Forrest's excellent book *'Yesterday's Sky, Astrology & Reincarnation'.. Sth Node square Uranus, "The Affiction: Violence, in a nutshell.
To be killed, hurt or maimed, or even to be manipulated by the threat of those things, leaves a deep gash in the Soul. What Was Left Unresolved: Rage. Terrible fear.
Feelings of powerlessness. Resentment. The Possible Projection: A paradoxical feeling "that all violent people should be taken out & shot."
Fear of strength.. anger. Fear of being noticed. The Resolution: To resolve this square, the individual must experience his or her own power & courage..
Martial arts or weapons training can be helpful. Confidence in the inner warrior must be restored." While I also noticed that included in her natal Nodal-Uranus & Ceres in Taurus 'grand cross'.. is her natal Taurus Sun, closely aligned with Chiron, & Mercury in Taurus.. So these all also relating to "skipped steps". Sun, Chiron in Taurus.. perhaps she was "vexed" (square nodes) by a very wounded man(Sun or authority figure) in a similar way before?
While *Mars in Leo, conj *Jupiter in Virgo
also oppose her Sth Node & join into the grand cross.. Suggesting she may have been the subject of some kind of abuse before.. standing from the Sth Nodes position.. ie. the past life.. both square ruler *Uranus(r) in Scorpio..
sexual abuse.. trauma.. all opp & square *Sun-Chiron-Mercury in Taurus.. Meanwhile here is what *'Yesterday's Sky' has to say about *the Aquarian Sth Node(Leo Nth).. Past life patterns tend to repeat, up until ones Saturn return maybe, the growing awareness..
"Aquarius, the sign of the rebel or the exile".. "existing in tension somehow with consensual reality".. "a feeling of it being "me" or "us," against the world".. "Furthermore, because he or she may share Soul-memories of persecution or even torture, & a dissociative tendency.. a reflex to "go away" emotionally." "With the Nth Node in Leo.. the Lion's Soul-intention: To roar! To be heard! The exile must make his or her presence felt in the world".. "To be "right" is one thing, the be heard is another.. He or she must find ways to appear plausible & convincing, especially to the unconverted.. to be appealing, non-threatening except where it is absolutely necessary.. Such a person is moving beyond rightness into effectiveness." Meanwhile I also note that Steve Forrest refers to the difference between "malefic planets" conjunct the Sth Node as being an indicator that possibly we were somehow responsible for or caught up in the persecution of others in some way in our past life or lives..
While he makes the suggestions that squares & oppositions etc are more likely a sign that we were somehow vexed by others, ie. more likely to have been a victim therefore.. However he also suggests that we may through our evolving consciousness awareness & Self understanding we can move away from these old patterns of the past... As usual. Ok then....