Thanks for taking the amount of time to post that information...to reach out to me...and also reach into yourself.
It was very very helpful...a 'Voice of Remind' that could have come echoing up from deep within myself, it was so right on the mark.
Several years ago, I was at a reading of the Osiris/Isis story, and a flood of energy splashed into my chest, and I lost knowledge of me, and then lived each part in the tale (even the blinded ferry guard) as it was told to the group. In some cases, I was acting out before he spoke...even parts of the tale that I did not know. I was drawing symbols on the floor (hurt my finger nails!), crying/moaning/beseeching out to the Earth to help me find the direction to the parts of my beloved Osiris (when I was Isis), with blubbering heart-wrencing sobs (I was told afterwards)... I was the fierce hatred of life and rule as Set, I was gentleness and kind order as Osiris... (It was rather disruptive for the others, I was told later by some...
) Just throwing that out there in response to the Egypt thing.
I have held myself away from the Mother...and am learning why, now. I didn't accept my previous-life choices is a part of it, as you stated. Yep, I have heard it and heard it...and now know I will action it. My son (8yrs) told my wife and I about a month ago: 'I don't like this chanting you guys do (he calls us 'you guys' sometimes!), I don't like it when you Bless me and Bless the food and Bless the bedtime...AND I don't like God!' (ending on a defiant note, arms folded over his heart). I just smiled, gathered him in for a hug, and asked him why? He doesn't know, and 'You'll make me angry if you talk about it.' So...another hug and a bigger smile, and I let it (and him) go (for now).
However, he is one of the most compassionate people I know...truly compassionate in his heart, and not working at compassion like me. So, I now realize that this distance I have placed between the God'dess and me was so that I could learn how to come back, and then translate that return into how to help him to come back, as he becomes ready (and of course any others who let God'dess reach them through me).
I have been through a rebirth ceremony, and in reliving it...I almost died, choking and choking, and the hatred from my birth mother!, and it took the help of the moderator to convince me to breathe (yes, drama...drama...drama!). Afterwards, I called my mom and casually was like: 'So...nice day, yeah?...um...so what was my birth like...?' She said I was born with the cord around my neck, I was scrawny, and I died on the table and had to be resuscitated. Then, equally casually, 'You were an unexpected pregnancy...' and what I got was (from the rebirthing) also unwanted. Unwanted in the womb...unwanted on the table...unwanted as a child.
So...yes, lots there. And now I know from EA to ask, 'Why did my Soul choose to be born into these circumstances?'
And the answer is coming to me from readings, from posts such as yours and Wendy's and Dhyana's and Adina's and Heather's and Steve's and Rad's and Lia's and Lesley's and....everyone's... overflowing with compassionate knowledge to ACT upon (and occasionally a nudge into action, too, yeah?
). This is itself a lesson-through-example in compassionate helping, in caring counseling. I needed to learn this right-brain caring apparently before learning the left-brain technology of EA (which itself leads us back to the right-brain = Virgo to Pisces). For me, the quest for information has changed into a pursuit of knowledge to actually implement (and not to just learn and place into files!).
Apparently, posting this has helped others to post...and more importantly, look within. (If this is blurring over into social networking, then it is the best kind!!) The knowledge of the past and the Why? is the Technology/Brain of EA, but the implementation of the resolution seems to me to be the Soul/Heart of EA...the actual resolution phase of this work. I read recently in a How to...Therapy type of book, that the resolution of an intense emotional state often requires an equally intense emotional state - simply 'knowing' the occurence is not always enough, the knowing often needs to occur in an emotional way...there must be investment. Perhaps, for me (and others here who this thread has touched/activated?) the exposure in such a public forum was the crucible which created that intense emotional state. (I am sleeping better, now...anywho...)
So...thanks to everyone who has helped me to invest...and perhaps, has become more invested themselves once again...?!?
Blessings to ALL you wonderful helping Souls,
Much love to all...may the force (of light) be with you Stephen!
Thank you Thank you Thank you...And with YOU!!
you are very beautiful and open. I love that in you!
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I hope it was useful and in service to REALITY.
Thank you very much...and right back atcha
Your posting was very welcome, very timely, and so 'spot on'. I have printed it out to carry around and reread... Soooo well said...