Stephen told me something about giving up the building of a myth of oneself, and after thinking on that for some days I think it has to do with this idea: that I am being able to grow to see a little more of this wonderful things just because my life is becoming more simple, and the idea of what my life can be, closer to what really is. It is kind of paradoxical because it implies that, upon commencing to give up the myth of myself, it happens that I do have a “mission” here. Further, this “mission” or task implies that new material, previously suppressed, originating from this life and prior lives, will need to be integrated in my consciousness, ie. that a new tale or myth of myself will be created by myself, a happier story in the end I guess, though including chapters not so happy. Indeed, my latest version of my story is too sad and tragic, and also, very incomplete, so I do want to give it up and then change it. A friend of mine says that all he wants to have when death comes to take him from this place is a beautiful story. So, I do want and am anxious to learn how to go back to those lives I lived, the simple or “normal” ones such as the one you told me when I left my family and traveled far away to make money, and also the other, more “mythified” ones. And I want to learn to do that in order to heal those traumas and also to help heal other traumatized souls, some even traumatized by myself at some level at some time, whom I have already met in this life, such as my prior wife. I think the idea Stephen gave me about de-mythification has practical application for me so I will keep on thinking on it.
I really like what you wrote there, and the play of your thoughts. Once a person's life becomes simple, and there is less of 'them' (The Myth of You, so to speak), then there is alot more room for everything else.
To add to that concept, in terms of what I am trying to accomplish within myself in growing towards Soul identification, and lessen the purely egoic identification:
I think of 'The Myth of Stephen' in terms of a Noun, which can be thought of as a static definition which is applied to an object, and so this myth is a self-imposed definition of 'Stephen' which may or may not fit me, but certainly is limiting "me" to my ego's self-defining trait/ability. Perhaps in the EA Paradigm that can be considered as The Trinity of the Past (Pluto, South Node and its Ruler).
However, there is this evolving "me" which has an unknown self-definition. (JWG on the DVD "Psychodynamics of the Moon" states something to the effect of 'Embrace Insecurity!') Insecurity in this sense to me implies the old statement of "Let Go...and Let God!"
So...this then suggests that I should NOT adhere to a self-defining self-definition (NOUN), but should perhaps move into the moment-by-moment actively evolving action of God'dess-inspired choice (a VERB - if you will). Therefore, I am not 'Stephen' but am constantly 'Stephening'!
[In other words, I am therefore not acting from what I think
that I am, or what anyone thinks
that I am...but am instead acting from what I truly am
, which is the inner Soul.] (Mostly it seems to be working, but it can be painful, because blinding self-definition often carries the story
of pain, but VERBing in this way leads to self-analysis, and I have found that true self-analysis can open one up to real
pain, from deep within. Of course, this is the darkness which has to be faced as we move toward healing. Anyway, it is a path I am currently taking, so, since my 'story' is on this Message Board, then I might as well hint at the tale's current chapter!)
Perhaps in the EA Paradigm this free will is to find its direction through an awareness of a person's natal chart's Trinity of the Future (Pluto Polarity Point, North node and its Ruler).
I love feedback (an external viewpoint accepted internally), so anyone let me know what you think, if you so choose.
Blessings to All who Read This,