Thanks Patricia, Deva, Ari and Linda for your great contributions to this birthchart analysis. I have some additional comments based on what you have posted.
Linda's quote: “Venus is beginning a new cycle in relation to Pluto/Libra/11th. Venus is also the ruler of Pluto. This aspect describes an urge to follow new attractions instinctively and spontaneously. These attractions are opportunities to fulfill her prior Soul intention to learn balance and equality in relationships, and to liberate from outmoded patterns in relationships. These relationships are karmic re-live in nature”
With Pluto in Libra in the 11th House, and given her evolutionary condition-Individuated and still in process of individuating-she still needs to know herself and liberate her natural way of being, and this is necessarily occurring through initiating series of relationships with many people. Further, she has been evolving beyond her pre-existing limitations through relationships. In order to do this, many of the relationships she has desired have been very close relationships, in order to osmose what she feels she needs from her partners (South Node in the 8th House, square Pluto). Given a long story of cumulated trauma in her Soul, and because her natural emotional needs have gone unfulfilled during many of her childhoods in several lifetimes, the unresolved emotional states and expectations have conditioned the nature of many of these relationships, and of the types of partners she has attracted. The co-existence of the desire to feel secure though her partners, and the desire to pursue new relationships with people she feels reflect the new aspects of herself she needs to discover, has created many terminations and “overlapping” of relationships. Thus, many of these relationships are not resolved or concluded, and have created the need to re-meet. Further, there is also an element of guilt, both acquired and natural guilt, because of prior sudden partings, or duplicities, rebellions from relationships and family ties, and the consequences faced because of these partings, including consequences for other people, and for her own family (the Moon being the South Node ruler, in the 11th House, conjunct Uranus, Uranus ruling the 4th House cusp). Also, dynamics of having needed to recover the past of the relationships after her leavings, and having needed to accept conditions (Saturn being the North Node ruler, and being conjunct the South Node, and in Disseminating phase square to Pluto). Thus, there are dynamics of guilt and humiliation.
There is also an element of anger and vindictiveness toward men, because of experiences and circumstances she has faced as a woman, which has manifested through adopting a relationship and sexual behavior that is typical of men in these societies, ie. being the facto polygamous, etc. Considering that she attracts partners that are co-dependent and emotionally needy, this has been a way to be in control of these relationships. This is also a reflection of other lifetimes when she incarnated as a male.
Linda's quote: “(How could these dynamics find a resolution?) By learning through a process of trial-and-error. Learning to make wiser decisions in relationships. Separating friendships and sexual relationships. Developing humility. Finding a partner who reflects all of these qualities.”
To me, the process of trial and error in relationships seems natural because she is becoming a minority through her ongoing self-discovery, which occurs through relationships. Progressive self-knowledge should naturally lead to a point where she could see how she is living different aspects of her desire nature through each of these relationships (Venus conjunct Uranus in the 11th House Libra, squaring the nodes), which she needs to maintain in parallel because she is looking at herself at a fractured mirror, so to speak, where each of these relationships reflect a part of who she is. Progressive integration in and through relationships would require her to objectively view and accept that she desires to have one complete relationship allowing her to embrace all this fragmentary dynamics of who she is. Finding such partner would require to become self-reliant, and more focused in her conscious desires and motivations, instead of being available to new relationships that occur, most of them, as if initiated from outside herself. And still, she would need to be honest about the nature of her desires, her sudden and compulsive attractions. I think she would need to acknowledge her polygamous orientation, and at the same time, her desire to be monogamous when she finds the right partner.
Ari's quote: “Her soul is desiring to cut through more layers of her conditioning and become free from these patterns. Of course this means she has to develop the self awareness that she does this in the first place, and then the awareness of WHY she does this.”
These desires have been in place in many variations along many lifetimes, as reflected in Pluto in the 11th House squaring the South Node in the 8th House Cancer (fixed Houses). At some points, she has needed to detach from her emotional reality and her life circumstances in order to view it objectively. Sometimes this has been connected to traumatic experiences. Detaching from her inner reality has been necessary in order to objectively discover new ways of looking at things, with implied the purpose of finding new ways to resolve or to evolve beyond the existing limitations and emotional pre-existing patterns. However, it would seem that many times she has remained detached instead of applying the new approaches that would serve for liberation, because of the resistance to penetrate her own psychological dynamics, and to transform her self-image (the South Node in the 8th House Cancer, with its planetary ruler, the Moon, being in the 11th House, conjunct Uranus). This dynamic operates in a compulsive and unconscious way. It is like someone who needed to run away from home, and since then has been always running away from home, including her own inner home. And of course her life goes too fast, she is always “running”. She is always looking for an external way, some new partner, who will make a big difference. Thus, she tends to be always looking outside herself, instead of looking inside.
Ari's quote: “Given the strong emphasis on the sn for healing (resolution node, and ruler of nn conj the sn), she will eventually become exhausted and explore deep psychological work that will enable her to objectively understand her past trauma, either this life or past, that will enable her to then understand her own psychology. This will need to be a very gentle counselor who will validate her ego, who will not push her too much. She needs to feel accepted and listened to.”
Indeed she has done quite deep psychological work, during many years. And she has become aware, through her work experience, of her need to resolve these dynamics and heal the unresolved emotions at a deeper level, because she has attracted clients who have similar dynamics.
Within the types of people she has attracted, she has also attracted “silver tongue devils”, who play back her own psychology and who know the precise words to speak in order to have her controlled and available.
Ari's quote: “She can easily become paranoid as a result of projecting onto others that they "need" something from her”.
She sometimes gets paranoid, based on her projection of her fears of judgment and because some of people she attracts, which are quite judgmental by themselves. In turn, she is also many time the target of other’s projections, based on their unresolved emotions, their desires to manipulate, their own avoidance of their inner emotional reality, and the nature of their judgments.
Ari's quote: “Her own resistance to find out who she actually is, to be honest about her own insecurities has lead to a constant unconscious "neediness" all the while remaining detached from true intimacy.”
In fact she remains detached from true intimacy, because she chooses relationships where she cannot embrace the fragmented aspects of herself. At the same time, she creates dynamics which complicate the trust issues, because they contain an element of dishonesty. Thus, she chooses sets of relationships in which she cannot trust, and which prevent her from going deeper into herself. This pattern is also a reflection of current sexual ideology, ie. a “liberated” sexual orientations which in this society is considered to be more evolved.
Deva's quote: “With Venus/Uranus/Moon in Libra in the 11th house she would need to realize that her relationships are a reflection of her self image (moon) inner relationship (Venus) with herself, and represent aspects of herself that she wants to liberate from (Uranus and natal planets in Libra in the 11th house). Most likely these are unconscious aspects of herself that she has not "owned". In other words, she will be able to see certain behavior or patterns in those that she is in a relationship with, but not own that these relationships are, again, reflections of herself that she intends to liberate from. It reflects a pattern of self objectification through the relationships that are attracted.”
Indeed she has deep complains about her partners which are reflections of her own psychological and emotional dynamics. I have been amazed that she seems totally unable to relate any of the reasons for her complains to herself. Apart of the projection, and the avoidance and denial, there is also a lot of rationalization (Pluto in the 11th House is trine Jupiter Rx in the 3rd House Aquarius). And she uses these rationalizations not only to conceal aspects of her own reality to herself, but also to manipulate her partners. The degree of avoidance and projection is quite heavy, and she gets to the point of feeling victimized because the partners don’t seem to understand her at times!
Deva's quote: “The skipped steps would then revolve around "owning" or accepting the responsibility for these emotional patterns, and hopefully taking the path of liberation instead repeating trauma she has suffered”
While having desires to break free from these patterns, the way she has chosen has always involved initiating a new relationship with someone else, while at the same time maintaining the prior relationships “for the time necessary”. This is quite crazy, of course, and operates as a need to re-create traumatic events. At the same time, the potential for crises and trauma based on duplicity creates for her and some of her lovers, a highly insecure social situation. Some of these lovers also have unresolved traumas caused by duplicity. Further, this is complicated because she gets a feeling of being powerful and astute because of her ability to coordinate and keep this complex reality moving, and maintaining the lovers at their proper places (the Pluto polarity point in the 5th House in Aries, North Node in the 2nd House Capricorn, with its planetary ruler, Saturn, in the 8th House). It is also complicated because of the ideologies she has bought which grant her the right of pursuing her egocentric desires, with the idea that “society is not prepared to understand sexual freedom”.
Patricia's quote: “The word that came to my mind when I first looked at her chart was Courtesan. Taking this either as a literal past life or metaphoric of certain types of past lives and what the soul has internalized. You have a woman of certain social standing that is seemingly powerful, yet intrinsically that very social position is demeaning . You know, historically women were not (are not) able to rise to real power without being sexualized..or trading off parts of themselves to gain status.”
Further to these lives as a courtesan, I saw in her birthchart other lifetime or lifetimes as a prostitute, ie. exercising prostitution as a way to survive, and further, to preserve her freedom (the Libra/11th House planets, including Venus/Uranus, with Venus square the Nodes from Houses 2nd to 8th, the North Node in the 2nd House, and its ruler back in the 8th House; Mars in the 6th House Taurus inconjunct Pluto and sextile the South Node, and trine the North Node; perhaps this is also indicated by the black moon Lilith being in the second House and Balsamic conjunct the North Node, and Vesta being in the 10th House, in Leo, sextile Venus/Uranus/Moon, trine Chiron in Aries in the 5th House). In such lives as a common prostitute, she would have faced social over-exposure, and direct violence associated with this type of profession. For many years she had deep fears of unwanted people getting into her home at night. Also a series of dreams or nightmares about this.
In this context, looking at the Pluto in the 11th House squaring the South Node in the 8th House, with the ruler, the Moon, being in the 11th House, conjunct Venus/Uranus, squaring the nodes, etc., suggests to me the ancient dynamic of “mixing blood” that JWG mentions. I don’t know if this dynamic was associated with some type of prestige or social position at those times.
“The Libran denial layer can come from such female lives where one needs to divorce from what the body and emotions may register as unwanted sex..in exchange for what the head (and social benefits) say is getting power. Of course it is hollow power...not what the NN in Cap in the 2cnd is pointing to. Healing the splitting and fragmentation ( Libra /11th house) means she has to come to terms with her vulnerable ( Moon/Venus) self to reclaim the parts of her emotional self that are wounded.”
I think reclaiming the parts of her emotional self that are wounded would have to occur also within her existing relationships. This would lead to the necessary confrontations with the partners that would allow to bring these relationships to a resolution. Either the partner accepts to evolve in a way that serves her needs of self-discovery and healing, and which can be embraced in an open and honest way, or the relationship should naturally reach a termination. This challenge would require her to accept the possibility of being alone (Pluto in the 11th House, Pluto polarity point in Aries). All of this would require her to penetrate and psychoanalyze herself in order to uncover the dynamics and the displaced emotions that are the reason why she never wants to be alone (South Node in the 8th House Cancer, North Node ruler conjunct the South Node). It would also require her to embrace her desires to create a reality that progressively reflects more aspects of who she naturally is, instead of being so conditioned by the requirements of the partners (the Pluto polarity point in the 5th House Aries, the North Node in the Second House).
This seems quite a fixed pattern, isn’t it. It is operating in such a way that re-creation of trauma seems so likely.
Much more can be added, even though the main dynamics have already been identified and synthesized. I will post further about this birthchart if I have any insight. Any further comments, observations, etc. that you may have, are most welcome.
God Bless,
Gonzalo
